Thursday, 16 April 2020

If I Could Trade Places With Someone, It Would Be...



If I Could Trade Places With Someone, It Would Be...



This reminds me of that saying, “step into someone’s shoes to see how they are truly feeling.” I’m going to do that! Or at least imagine. This is really hard! I never really asked myself this question. I don’t want to pick my parents because I pretty much know their daily schedule. Wake up at 5 am, work, cook, chores, watch TV, sleep and repeat. Quite fun, isn’t it? A famous person? Too busy. Even though they probably have more privileges than me. Maybe someone in between. Oh, my cousin, *unnamed*. Right in between. I’ve just thought of 4 reasons on the spot!



I know a lot of artistically challenged people but her? A big no! If you say my artwork is good, you might want to take that back when you see hers. Yes, this is one of the reasons I wanted to trade places with her because she has a passion and curiosity in art. She has a creative spirit and she’s like a kite, flying, soaring with ideas. I always try to become a better artist every day but I want to be as good as her. I don’t envy her, I just appreciate and get inspired by her. She is probably one of the biggest inspirations in my life. Her singing growth has become stronger and for a bold and loud voice like hers is what I just need to boost my confidence. When you hear her sing, you can tell she’s really assertive. I know I will never be like her when it comes to singing in front of people. I can’t even sing in front of my best friends! She’s apart of many concerts because everyone knows she has a voice. Not so much for me. I did think of singing at the yearly winter concert but I know that would be in faraway thought, from my reach. I would like to take part in school shows and musical concerts like how she does.



Speaking of music, another thing she does in the arts is the violin. If you don’t know, I have wanted to play the violin for about three or four years and I still haven’t been able to go to classes. My parents tried to persuade me to play the piano or veena which is an ancient instrument that’s evolved in music variations like the arched harp. The violin called my name though. She is really lucky to be going because I had another weird thought of playing it in front of students at my school. As we know, a faraway thought. The love and affection from a sister-in-law is something my cousin sister and cousin have experienced. Obviously, I can’t get one out of my 16-year-old brother. I have to wait for 10 years to even get one. I can list 20 more reasons why I want to trade lives with her but there are certain negatives that you wouldn't expect right away.



When it comes to being a senior in high school, you have a lot of pressure put on you. Let alone high expectations. Especially when you are going to university next year. This would mean 2 am bedtime, no mental breaks and 5 am wakeup time. That’s quite hard and she’s doing well! Show me your ways because that seems stressful for me. Maybe because I’m just 13.



After wearing someone else’s shoes, I now see that people’s lives are not how you see it physically. Of course, she’s talented in so many ways, not only in the arts but that’s work ethic! Just typing the negative features in her life may have made me panic about highschool. That’s probably enough imagining today.




Note: Greetings my fellow readers and welcome newcomers. I hope you guys are doing well during this pandemic because it has been hard on all of us. Many people have been drowsy during this time and some have been having a tough time with mental health. Especially anyone who's coping with that. Stress and anxiety hit hard during this quarantine. As much as I, We, want to complain about the harsh year of 2020 but maybe it's time we start acknowledging the positives or memories you had this year to light up our world. I'll start off by saying what good experiences I've had this year. 

In the first month of 2020, three things come to my mind in a snap. I won a character trait award, I made a new friend who is my best friend now and my marks were increasing. On my birthday month, I obviously... had my 13th birthday where I was introduced to Teenhood. I was one of the winners for a draw at my school and watched one of my new, all-time favourite movies, Frozen II. (Don't knock it till you try it). March was honestly a great time with friends and that's when I started this website which was nerve-racking for me. In April, I started to get more inspired for the trilogy series that I haven't written yet but definitely have dreamt of.

Saturday, 4 April 2020

The Top People I'm Grateful For That Are In My Life :)



The Top People I'm Grateful For That Are In My Life




For someone single like me, this is an adequate journal prompt since Valentine’s Day is this week. I’ve learned that Valentine’s Day is not only for someone who has a significant other. You can be grateful for mankind around you. I have some past connections with the word “grateful.” Every morning in our humble Grade 6 class last year, we would have to write 3 or more things we were grateful for that day. Later on that week, I would always choose more than one thing to share. After all, I’m an indecisive person. You can tell from these journal entries, can’t you? With the whole indecisive theme, it was so hard to pick a few people to type about. You can honestly font your letters about anybody. You can be thankful for the founder of UberEats, your neighbour or the lady who found you lost watch. Oh, that’s a whole other story. Your mind may stop at a few people but there are probably hundreds of people beyond that barrier. I’ve been pursuing the thought of being grateful for everything and everyone I have. Sometimes mood outs can easily make you feel like these people aren’t doing anything about your complications and thoughts. I can speak from what I have experienced. From this perk on putting more than one person into a wholesome paragraph is amazing. Maybe I could fill the hundreds in there?



If you took my last sentence for granted, I think the Sagrada Familia would have been built. Probably fully-fledged with tourists. I have a deep affection for everyone I mention but the first pair of people are my parents. Where do I start? They’ve sacrificed their well being so I can have a better life. My parents had to live apart from each other for 10 months, my dad living in Vancouver and my mom settling here. It didn’t seem like a big deal then since I was a toddler. Now looking back, how did they do that? I couldn't live apart from my parents when I was in camp. My dad and my mom connected me to God and I greatly appreciate them for that because I’ve had the pleasure to follow God’s steps through the chapters of my life. Them, having high expectations makes me hustle to do my best in school and my ongoing future. I always feel determined to do well from the loving support my parents give me every day on what I want to do hereafter. Parents have their opinions but there are some that I feel like who want you to do this specific job, just because it makes them proud that you’re pursuing the job that they want you to be. My parents have always told me that they will be proud of any occupational path I choose to follow. Whether it comes to architecture or journalism, my parents are going to be there, cheering for me. I will say that a job you work for changes your identity. It can be a simple bruise to a twisted knee, they both take time off to make sure I’m back in tip-top shape again. My mom, we can put as an example, almost asked for time off from her job even though she knew the answer was going to be “no.” Requesting for a leave of absence for someone who is not entirely permanent is sacrificing a lot as you may lose your job. Like Rousseau pencilled down in 1750, “money can’t buy you happiness.” They’ve bought many items and opportunities from their hard-earned money therefore I can feel jovial and have more open doors to things that will impact my future in a good way. I worship my parents like God since they have put a positive impact on my entire lifestyle from the early morning to the dusky night.



I’ve apparently brought joy into these next two people’s lives when I was first delivered on Earth. They were excited to have a companion in their life and was excited to have a little sister. Yes, you have heard it here first, my brother and sister. Sister? I can tell that you have a confused look on your face from hearing I have an older sister. She’s technically not my biological sister but she is my cousin sister. They both have done so many things for me but to explain all in a sentence, it would be having my back at times when I’ve majorly needed it. They accompany me during my sorrowful times. Us occult teenagers might have that pet peeve of nosy siblings or friends. I see that as affection because they want to be with you every step of the way. Some like my brother may not give the best advice but they listen to your pain, hanging onto every word. They would do anything that’s involved with the problem. This is probably the best constructive impact that any teenager can have because it makes you feel safe and secure. I feel a lot of negative energy just typing about this and as they all say, focus on the positive energy. Now I sounded like an astrologer there. They always have fun with me and never act like a tedious grouch. My sister and brother always influence me to let go and have some fun since I do kind of study like a student who goes to University. I never have time to relax on the weekdays since that determination keeps surging through me so I can finish a few of my tasks and get ahead. “Just ignore them, they’re words don’t matter” is a satisfying mantra that my siblings have told me whenever I take someone’s words seriously. Most of the time, I don’t have people’s words rolling around my head but things like “you’re not trying… you’re a bad artist… you’re bad at math… you’re not a good friend” and phrases like that make me doubt myself. My mind clicks to go to them before my parents. They tell me the same mantra and I know I should never have been doubting myself in the first place. Seeing their past makes me realize that they developed through many things so they can be their own role model.




These past few weeks I’ve been spending more time with them from this whole strike controversy. I hope it stays this way for a long time but I know it will only last for another year or so. My inspirational uncles and aunts are truly an inspiration. I’m not just saying that I’m being real. My uncles and aunts are always available to help when I need them most. It can be drowning in the sea of struggles but it could also be staying over at their house and having fun. They’ve put a positive impact on me from making my dreams come to reality. As you know I’ve always wanted to do architecture and knowing that they said that they need to put me into an architecture program which I felt touched. Not a lot of aunts or uncles would think that about someone at 13 years. Actually, the whole concept of architecture came from my uncle. He is a senior architect and he has inspired me to do the same. Just thinking about him makes me put more time to focus on math, language and art. I take their advice when it comes to education or personal. They’ve been through many situations especially in Sri Lanka and tell me what’s best. As you may know, when it comes to living in a new city with a different atmosphere than what you’re used to, it gets scary at times but they got out of they’re way for us to live in their house for 3 months. I don’t know that many people would do that. I’m always going to be they’re precious niece even if I grow up to 25. They give the most exceptional care even if I move to a different country. Making me feel special in every way possible puts an upbeat impact on me.




This was hard to narrow down to the last pairs of people; my friends or teachers. Getting some opinions from my family, I picked teachers. I love my friends and they’ve put a positive impact on my mental health but as a studious student like me? How can I not bring up my teachers? I’m going into specific teachers like *unnamed**unnamed* and *unnamed*. All three of them saw what I do best and motivated me to keep doing what I love. I love entertaining my teachers with my art and language skills and they seem to appreciate it. I like that they all pay attention to my hard work and dedication because I’ve had teachers who think I’m not trying my best and gave me satisfactory marks. Now stating it in that way, it sounds callous. Them knowing what I’m strong in and encouraging me to keep it going puts a buoyant impact on me to keep doing what I’m interested in. I may be a nerd for saying this but school is another home to me because I was taught to venerate my teachers like God. The positive feedback they give back tells me that they want every student to do well so they can be successful in that grade. Probably not in that grade, for their upcoming future. As they may be twice as old as we are, I will say that they are role models that any student should follow. Especially these 3 teachers because they’ve given many opportunities for new, open projects. Their creativity inspires me to be as creative as them when it comes to projects I want to do at home. Some students might just see teachers as teachers but I see them as God.




Every E-Journal I’ve done, I realize how many people are there for me when it comes to anything. Maybe more in studies but that’s because they want me to be at the top. There were so many other people that I could have mentioned in my E-Journal like my future sister-in-law, my best friends, my cousins but how long can this E-Journal be? Another 3 pages?




(By the way, my brother is 16 but my sister-in-law is marrying my cousin brother, not my brother)


Thursday, 2 April 2020

Stay Safe Y'all



Stay safe guys!

During this nerve-racking time, all we could do is to make sure that our loved ones and ourselves are safe. Stay positive and we will get through this together. In every problem, when things are dark, there's always a beckon of light shining through but with the shadows surrounding us, it can be hard to find. We need to find it so we can all be in peace. With the new online school forthcoming, I'll be back soon with more writing/reading content for you guys. Love you and AGAIN! Stay safe and healthy. :)




Sincerely,

Varshini

PS, Happy Belated Birthday Shruthi